Where has the time gone?
Mood:  accident prone
Whoops, looks like I forgot about this blog for a little while now. I know it's been a bit but I have returned with some new stuff. Let's see first off, the major news, I'm no longer an Islander. That's right kids, Steven has finally escaped Staten Island (a.k.a. Riker's Island) and moved to Brooklyn. Who knew? Don't get me wrong, I still have the previous job (consultant position now) as well as the new one. The new digs I've settled are indeed smaller (think of the movie Cube when imagining the size of my room) but cheaper. $450 a month is something to smile about. I've also gained a new roommate (hence the cheap rent). So far everything is going to plan except for one thing (come on, you knew this was coming), no man. Should come as no surprise to anyone I'm still single. I'm too damn shy to go out and meet people. Think of me as one of those mole people that rarely go outside the house only to get food. Anyhoo, I moved to a nice area called Red Hook (almost like the place I work at, Chelsea). I'm really feeling like a super hero at my job. Few weeks ago, my boss accidentally (not sure at all how) deleted all of his mail. Now, to you, that may not sound like anything at all. "He deleted his e-mail, so what??" Let me finish. His e-mail has been gathering for the last few years. In total, he had over 7000 e-mail. Holy Shit!! you say? Exactly what I said after recovering the big bitch of e-mails he had. There are lots of problems that I seem to be solving oddly enough. Have my skills improved that much. I mean I know I was pretty good but never this good.

On another note, yesterday I saw the ep III of Star Wars. The roommate was super eager to see the movie, asked me if Iwanted to come along, said sure. It wasn't bad, though not being a Star Wars fan definitely played a factor in enjoyability. What I'm waiting for in terms of movies are Mr. and Mrs. Smith, and Fantastic Four. That will indeed make me salivate like one of Pavlov's dogs. Alright all, time for Steven to live his somewhat life just a little bit more. Seeya...

Quote of the Day (whoa, it's back? go fig):

"What's the deal with corn-nuts?" - Jerry Seinfeld

It's been awhile
Mood:  a-ok
Well it's definitely been awhile since the last entry I put in to this thing. Let's see where we are now.



I turned 21 the Friday before last, hooray. I would be more enthusiatic if i had a really good birthday. I didn't as I went to Atlantic City and lost 100 bucks there. I didn't get too many presents. The only one I received was a box of italian cookies from one of my co-workers (Pat's awesome). And on top of that I was looking desperately for another job as I saw this one was going down the toilet, literally. The realty is pretty much closed now.



I did interview for a computer tech job in the city this past Monday. And it went really well. I called him up yesterday to see if I was going to be a part of his staff and lo and behold, I now work in Manhattan. Thank God, because it was literally down to the wire. Now all I need to worry about is finding a man. That shouldn't be too difficult since I'm going to Chelsea. The only setback is that I'm beyond shy, as you already know so it should make for an interesting future entry. Alright, time to prepare for Monday. Seeya.

Ain't this a bitch!?!
Mood:  irritated
I'm back and a bit pissed off. First up, I haven't found a new job or a new place to live as of yet. The 2 studio apts. I've seen so far suck. One had a low ceiling (too low). The other was in a bad neighborhood. What's worse is that now the company I work for is slowly sinking, thus the boss has decided to put me on part-time status. I'd be ok with it if I was still living with my ma and them. Now I might have to move out if I don't find a job soon. Well, on the plus side, I have a date this coming Saturday and it looks promising. Ah and that brings us up to date. Seeya.

P.S.: No quote today, my brain's constipated.

Hello Stranger....
Well after a bit of a hiatus I'm back to update everybody on what has been going on. The job interview was a fluke as it was a recruiting agency, not a potential job interview. They were asking for 1500 dollars. And so I'm still with this job. woo... Anyway, I went to look at an apartment today, and unfortunately my height was taken into consideration. The studio apt. was in the basement for one. And, the ceiling was a couple of inches lower than me. So now I'm still in the same apt. As for Randy, I had to end it. Nothing that strained will last or be good for a relationship. So now I'm single again. Again....woo.... Well that's it for now, American Idol is on and I can't miss it. Seeya...





Quote of the day (I feel pretty, oh so pretty...):




"What did the five fingers say to the face?....SLAP!!!" Dave Chappelle as Rick James......Bitch

If there ever was a day made completely to remind you of how alone you are.....
Mood:  blue
You'll be seeing a lot of that icon when it comes to me. Depression sucks, especially when February 14th comes along. this will be the 21st time I have no one to celebrate Valentine's Day with. Sure, you're wondering "What about Randy?". Honestly I can't answer that question. I thought he was coming to visit this past Saturday. Unfortunately that never happened and I haven't been able to call him since. He probably wanted to hang out with his friends which is completely fine. It just would have been nice to get the info that he wasn't coming so I didn't have to stay up until 2AM waiting to see if he was actually coming. Well today someone did make my drab world a little better. I wasn't expecting him to actually send the package but Ralacuba ( I still can't remember his name lol, sorry hon) definitely did. I won't say what he got me, but it certainly made me feel somewhat better. Thankee hon.

Alright well it's been a bit since my last entry so let's see what we've got so far: On the job search front, I do have an interview this Saturday at 1PM for a position as either an Entry Level or Junior Programmer. Day by day I'm getting ready for the interview. Today I pulled out my portfolio, took my suit out of retirement, and deep soaked my best dress shirt in bleach. Plus I also secretly printed out my updated resume. I'm really positive that I will get this position and even if I don't, I'm positive that another opportunity will be coming my way very very soon.

I've found the ideal place to move. It's a studio apartment, includes gas and costs 650 a month. The only thing I need to do now is to save up for the coming move. This should really come together inside March. Hell, I might be too busy doing all this to celebrate my B'day. In any event, all this needs to be done. In order for me to continue my career and my life, I need to be in a state of mind where I'm at peace and comfortable. Not to say that this current job is crap. It's just that this job is pretty much stifling my career as a programmer. Granted, this job's giving me a ton of non-related exp. but 4 1/2 months of that is enough. Time to move on.

Well the wheels will start going in motion very soon. Tune in to see what happens. Seeya.

Quote of the day(now MSG free):

"Crack is cheap. I make too much money to ever smoke crack." - Whitney Houston (cracks me up every time I hear that)

Can't get the good scene all at once...
Mood:  caffeinated
Well looks like things are looking up in the Steven World. Randy changed his schedule so that he could spend more time with people. I'm glad for that because I'm one of those people. So I'm feeling a bit more optimistic than usual which always sends me into a worry streak. I have a habit of worrying that something bad is going to happen to me when things start going my way. I think it's because so many times in the past, my fam would have a high point and then it would go downhill most of the time. I was even at a point where when it was getting nearer to my 18th birthday, I started to panic that I wouldn't live to see my b'day. I was expecting something disastrous to happen to me. Well, in any event, I hope this goes well...



On another note, I'm looking for new residence. There are a few reasons why I can't stay in this apartment. One, it's too big. I haven't even moved into the bedroom yet. All I do is sleep on the Godforsaken futon. Two, it's way too close to the office....like right under me too close. Honestly, I don't need the boss beckoning me at will just because I'm close. Third, too expensive. Lastly, this is the beginning of my transition to a second (main) job. I'm turning this one into a consultant job eventually. I'm going to say I'm leaving the firm but in time I'll have enough information left by me for the next person to do the job as well as me. That means I have a lot of work ahead of me. Of course, I'll come in for the occasional breakdown but I think I might be saying sayonara in the future. Alright time for bed. Seeya....



Quote of the day(with a side of whoopass):




"I'd like to see Phyllis Diller in Spandex" - as sung by Ryan Stiles on "Whose Line is it Anyway?"

God's practical joke on me....
Mood:  blue
Seems nowadays God knows how to play pranks. I talked to Randy today and it looks like I'll be seeing what happens on Monday. His schedule changes from 3PM till 12AM. I mean that's pretty good for him. He can see his friends more often. As for me, I'd probably be only able to see him on the weekends...which would still probably be constrained... I feel like any attempt to find or develop a relationship is squashed on by some unseen force in the universe that wants to see me become a spinster. What's worse, Valentine's Day is coming, and that's nothing to smile about in my world. Every year it's the same thing. I'm alone. Nothing like a holiday to make you feel like shit.

On a lighter note, Power Ranger SPD premieres on Saturday. Some speculate that this might be the last season. I might have to agree with them because I saw the next expected season of Power Rangers looking at the sentai in Japan. Their new season is called MagiRanger. The theme for that season is magic. Hopefully there's enough Harry Potter freaks to bring this one in with open arms.

Well that's it for now... Seeya...

Quote of the Day(because I said so):

"I'm super, thanks for asking..." - Big Gay Al

Losing faith in reality.....
Mood:  chatty
I saw Amazing Race yesterday and I've finally realized what happened to the show. They turned it into a three ring circus. I used to remember a time when the show was aboutthe cultures all the teams encountered, celebrating humanity instead of focusing on the relationships of the teams like most reality shows do (i.e. Survivor). They had wrestlers, a couple with the husband treating his wife like shit, and so many models. Honestly, it felt like a soap opera. Last season, there was drama, but it wasn't overwhelming. Now with this season, at the moment, I could care less who wins the race.

Alright, now that I've expressed my views on the decline of my fav show. On to what's going on in my mess of a life. I'm STILL waiting for my damn stuff I won from eBay. The item I'm really worried about is that mp3 player I won. I paid for that a week ago and I'm still waiting. Ugh, I can't stand it anymore.

In other news I think it's time I let Randy go. He's a very nice person, but it's been a month and a half since we seen each other that one and only time. Our schedules suck. It's even getting to the point where when I try to contact him at work, he's not there. I wonder if he's feeling the same way I do. I mean I can understand that he's been super busy, but at the same time I seek a full-time relationship. I'm not saying I'm clingy or needy, but I am saying that I'd like a boyfriend that I see in person more than I talk on the phone to. I had to go online and check his profile just to remind myself of what he looks like. Oy vey. I'll tell you how it went tomorrow. Seeya....

Quote of the day(now with Sweet and Low, the headache causer):

"I must break you" - That Russian dude from one of those Rocky movies....y'know....that one

After the day's done....
Mood:  lazy
As you can see by the icon, I'm a little tired. It's 6:23 PM and my shift is almost over. As you can see from my last entry, I was little bit pissed off. My boss called me that Saturday to tell me to come in Sunday at 8PM. I don't know about you but I think that would make any person pissed off, trying to enjoy their weekend.

I was out of it yesterday from that Sunday. When everything was eventually set-up on the computers, chaos ensued. I was being bombarded with computer problems which, in moderation, would have been just a normal day at work but it was, in fact, all at once. At 3PM I was burnt out. The boss checked to see if I was okay. He thought I was going through a depression. Something tells me I revealed a little too much about myself to him. Anyway, he let me leave 2 hours early.....joy...

Today was less hectic. A few problems here and there, but were accomplished. I'm still waiting for my eBay orders to come in. I'm very anxious to get my hands on that damn mp3 player. I have too many discs to handle and need a storage place (besides the laptop) to house them in. AH, good. 10 minutes left. Time to packup. Seeya...

Quote of the day(now with half the calories):

"I'm NOBODY'S Bitch" - Jet Li in THE ONE

Mistakes have been made...
Mood:  irritated
There have been many mistakes in my life, saying the wrong thing to my ma, dating the wrong guy, but none quite like this. I've come to the point where I don't enjoy my job anymore. At 10 bucks an hour working 50 hour weeks with no overtime, no benefits, no health insurance, sometimes working weekends and uses none of the skills I use in college, enough is enough. With that I also need to find new residence. If I find a new job, chances are that my boss will not even hear my idea for being a consultant to the company and will fire me and kick me out of my apartment out of spite. Plus he has the power to do so since there wasn't any contract signed to be living here and it also explains why I will probably no longer have cable in a few days. I probably sound paranoid at the moment (which I probably am) but I can't stand this job anymore. First off, part of my job requires me to send out automated telemarketing, which I absolutely hate. Next the fact that I work at a Real Estate office kind of weirds me out because I never really wanted to apply to working at a Realty. I actually was called about an opening to this job; I never applied here which is probably why I'm paying for it now. Look, I have nothing against the people who work there, none at all. It's just I do not fit there. Everyone's aggressive there and I'm not. The boss wants to get me to be more aggressive, I don't want to. The boss is having me learn networking which I don't have a problem with except for the fact that that was not what I had signed up for. I thought my main projects were going to be faxing, automated telemarkting, and working on the website. I also have nothing against my boss. It's just that our personalities don't click. He's very aggressive and works way too much while I'm passive and though I work hard, I don't work as much. I mean, as though the 50 hours I work a week isn't enough, I have weekends to worry about as well. Anytime he can beckon me to come down to work since I live upstairs. I'm thankful for the opportunity and the experience like I said before but it looks like I'll have to go soon. But first, job & apt. search and money save up. Well, time for bed since I have to come in.....on a Sunday.....at 9AM. Pray for me.....



Quote of the day.....



"Kiss the rings, bitch" - Dave Chappelle